I Lack The Emotional Resources

Posted by on Mar 12, 2015 in Healing & Wholeness | 1 comment

I Lack The Emotional Resources

In the Bible God promises to restore us to health and heal our wounds. Here is a healing encounter my husband Gerald experienced about 15 years ago.

“I was in a situation where I felt very disconnected from the people I was with, people who were very close to me. That evening I prayed & asked the Lord what my problem was. A thought came to me: ‘I lack the emotional resources.’ Immediately I knew this was true: I was unable to connect with other people. I felt emotionally isolated from them; I wanted to relate but didn’t know how.

When I asked the Lord to show me the root of this problem, I sensed a shadowy picture of my mother crying―over the death of my new-born brother. I knew that she had been in depression for many months after the death of her baby. For some months I prayed about this memory and asked the Lord to heal me.

One day I asked Judith and friends to pray and minister to me. During this healing event, the Lord took me back to this same memory: My mother has her back to me, agonizing over the death of her 5-day-old son. She is crying and extremely sad. I felt overwhelmed and cried out, ‘I don’t know what to do. Somebody needs to help her, but I don’t know what to do.’

In the middle of the pain, we invited Jesus to come into this painful memory and heal me.  I saw Jesus sitting cross-legged on the floor, playing with my toys! He smiled and beckoned me to come to Him. When I went over and sat on His lap, He comforted me as a Father would comfort his child. It felt so wonderful, reassuring. The thought came to me: ‘I do not have to do anything. It isn’t my job to do anything to fix my mother.’

In the next few weeks the Lord continued working with this traumatic experience. At one point, I saw that I had made an inner vow at that time: I would never care about the pain of others. If I couldn’t help them, then I would not care. In another healing moment, I was in a room filled with black despair and suddenly Jesus came and grabbed my hand, and we ran out into the sunshine. The heaviness was gone, and I felt free!

In those few weeks, I was freed from four lies: 1) I am powerless. 2) I don’t know what to do to help others who are emotionally upset (powerlessness); 3) I don’t care about the pain of others; 4) life is full of despair and hopelessness.

Since Jesus healed my wounded soul,  I have been aware of feeling much more connected to others. I feel comfortable in situations where I had previously felt withdrawn, and in general I sense a new self confidence and assurance. In groups I now feel emotionally connected in a new way, I am more open to people, and I possess the emotional resources appropriate to each situation.” (Radio Horeb transmission notes, January, 2003)

Christianity offers us healing and transformation. The work of Jesus Christ on the cross has made it possible for us to be healed in every level of our hurting human nature: emotions, thinking, behaviors. But we must learn to go to Him and receive something from Him, just as He told us to.

Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest (Matthew 11:28)

You search the Scriptures because you think that in them you have eternal life; it is these that testify about Me; and you are unwilling to come to Me so that you may have life. (John 5:39)

For I will restore you to health, and I will heal you of your wounds (Jeremiah 30:17).

One Comment

  1. Very good! Praise the Lord!

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